Back to the Carolinas: The end of my Fitness Journey 2020

those who do not move, do not notice their chains

-Laura Luxenburg

me at my heaviest

I started this year weighing in at 59.9 kg which is about 132. 057 lbs. I wasn't disappointed with myself about my weight but I did not like how my stomach look. I was not and I' am not fan of my belly pouch and I wanted to get tone and lose the belly.

Since I have the power to change my body, I decided to make it a goal this year to work on fix the things I didn't like about myself physically. 

hanging out with my sisters

In regard to nutrition:

I minimized the amount of times a drank alcohol per months, then per week. I drink my coffee black with no sugar, milk etc. I usually have fruits in the morning with my coffee. 

I gave up meat for Lent since I eat meat EVERY day and it's a essential part of my daily meal. So for 40 days, I did not eat meat. I dd my best to eat home more than twice a week. 

I stop adding sugar to my avocado spread. 

Then Covid-19 came and I had to work home. At first, this force me to cook more at home but as the state opened up, UBER Eats have become my best friend...literally

I struggled a lot with potion control especially when i eat my favorite food.

Around March 2020, I ended up drinking soda again (I gave up soda a few years ago). It started with ginger ale then dr. pepper and cherry coke. But after my grandma's funeral, I went cold turkey again and stop completely. 

In regard to Exercising:

I run every other day for 30-45minutes unless I'm very stressed out. If I stressed out, then I run for 1hr or more. On the days that I don't run, I would work out following the exercising videos from YouTube. 

Conclusion:

From January to July 2020, I lost a lot of weight and gained it all back and then some by August 29, 2020. I' am currently at 134 lbs. I've decided to accept where I am in life including my body. Accepting doesn't mean that I've given up on changing my body or adopting a healthy lifestyle. It just mean to me at least that it won't be my main focus and I won't be extremely obsessed with it. I have lived my life. I'm 32 years old. It's okay for me not to weight as I did when I was 18years old, 21  years old etc. I will still write down all my meals and work out on my fitness journal because i love writing things down. I will continue running because it's my stress reliever and I enjoy it. I will eat what I want because it's a blessing to be able to eat and have food. My belly pouch is there. But It does not negate my worth nor my beauty. 

~xoxo